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Scope Done

I had a scope of my stomach done today. I've been waiting to have this done for quite a while now. I was hoping so much that this would finally solve what has been wrong with me for so long. After I woke up from the anesthesia the doctor said they didn't find anything wrong. When I have mentioned this to a couple people, their response was "Oh, that's good". I mean, it should be good that they didn't find a problem. It's nice to know I don't have an ulcer or cancer or something. But, the reality is, there is still something seriously wrong with me. I have been in tons of pain and suffering for months and months now. This was my biggest fear, that nothing would be found and now nothing is going to change. It seems that doctors will continue to just keep guessing at what the issue is. My ultimate fear is that I will have to live like this forever. I really don't think I can handle that. The only thing that keeps me going from day to day is the knowledge that this will soon be over. Right now, I can't see when that day will be.