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Today has been one of the most rough days for me in a while. Things for me are starting to look pretty grim. People keep telling me, "Don't worry, things will get better." I keep waiting for that, but I don't really see it happening. Things actually just keep getting worse. And on top of that, the people that I care about keep abandoning me when I need them the most. I'm starting to think I will just give up on my current friends as they seem like they don't really care and that's really causing me more pain than anything else. I guess I also feel like I am a typically giving person, and right now when I feel like I need someone, the only people that I can talk to are people I barely know. Maybe I am really just very ignorant and the people that I think are my close friends, don't really feel the same in return. I suppose I've never really considered that the people I care about don't really care much about me. I always assume the best in people, and that's probably my biggest downfall. None of this probably makes sense to anyone, and that's okay. I do want to thank Rachael and Cristi and Sarah. You guys have provided me with amazing support and make me feel like there is someone out there you cares. I don't really know any of you guys that well, but I would like to change that in the future.