Last Few Days

The last week now seems like a hazy memory. I was really sick and not even sure if I'm still fully recovered. My stomach was in so much pain, I think my mind was basically wiped much of it all out of my mind. I am so out of it now as I don't seem to have a good concept of the time that has passed. It didn't help that I missed over two days of work last week. I woke up nauseated still this morning. This all started on Thursday. I started taking a new medication, Lexapro. I think it somehow damaged my stomach. I'm pretty sure all the pain was caused by bleeding as I was shitting this thick black tar-like stuff for the first couple days. Lets just say that I only took it once and that was enough. And the experience has once again fueled my dislike of doctors. I called to get something for the nausea, 24 hours later I ended up just requesting to get switched back to my old medication. It took five or six calls to the doctor to get this taken care of. They didn't seem to worried that I was in massive pain. I don't know what I'm going to do, I can't keep depending on these doctors. So, I am back on the buspar, but still on the 10mg that I was on before, so the effectiveness is kind of lacking. It's better than nothing though. Of course, this all happened during a fairly busy week. I was going to finally meet my friend Sarah for the first time in person Thursday night. We were going to see the movie that the production group I am in, Best Little Ever, created for the 48 Hour Film Project last weekend. It was showing in Royal Oak along with the other 25 (I think) teams. I didn't make that as I instead left work early and somehow made it home. Then Friday night was Rachael's party at her new apartment. I still ended up going to that even though I wasn't feeling that well. I started to feel somewhat better, but that went downhill as the night went on. This is probably the first time I've ever gone to a party and not drank. That was a bit unusual. None the less, I got to spend time with Rachael, so I enjoyed myself as best as I could. While I'm on that topic, meeting Rachael is one of best things that has happened to me in a while. Through all the depression and my mind going through the turbulence of emotion, she always makes me cheerful and happy. We seem to be on the same wavelength, and anyone that knows me knows that I don't easily find people that are like that. So, thankfully I got to spend a lot of time with her over the last week, and that I do remember clearly. Right now I am listening to Through Glass by Stone Sour. I have listened to this a lot lately. It's much how I feel about myself. This post has once again gone in very random directions like I often do. I think I have said all I have to say for now. I was going to make a post a few nights ago, but I broke the login system, so I couldn't login to make the post. Doh. At least that's working again.