Late Night Thoughts
I think I've determined that I'll probably end up being single forever. Seems the chances of me meeting someone that I can actually be with for any length of time is not very high. It has partially to do with the fact that I am somewhat picky with the people I associate with. I can't really handle anybody who is a conservative at all. Religion is another area that I just can't go for. I could handle middle-of-road people fine. I don't expect everyone to be a super liberal or anything. But, if you voted for Bush the second time around, there's obviously something fucked up in your head, and I just can't deal with that shit.
These things alone still leave quite a large number of people out there. But, I'm still just not much of a people person. I'm not that outgoing when first meeting people, and a lot of people can't seem to handle that. I've kinda grown contempt for most people in general. Then there is the intelligence factor. Probably something that bothers me more than anything is stupid people. There are just too many of these. And not to be sexist, but there seems to be a higher percentage of women that fall into this category. It could just be the ones that I know though.
I also really value open-mindedness. I would like to think of myself as extremely open-minded. I'm not really offended by anything. Nothing really shocks me too much. This pretty much is related to why I don't like conservatives. But, there always seems to be some hangup that people have. Either they hate homosexuals, or they are racist, or something along those lines.
There is also physical aspects. I am by no means the ideal male when it comes to this, but at the same time I am human and there are traits that I am attracted to in the opposite sex. Unless most guys, I really don't seem to have any preference when it comes to breast size. I'm not sure why, I think all sizes are nice. Weight isn't a big hangup for me either. I do have a thing for a pretty face though. That seems to be really important. A good smile and nice hair really does me over. Then there is a height issue. Being only 5'5", about half of all women are taller than myself. I can handle women being slightly taller, but anything more than an inch or so, and I can't really go for that. This is basically a confidence issue on my part, but that's just the way it is. The confidence thing may also stem from the fact that on almost all personals sites, women seem to want guys 5'7" or taller. Even women that are like 5 foot tall.
Then, on the rare occasion I do meet someone that I actually can stand and have conversation with, there always seems to be a problem. Once again, the lack of confidence that I have always makes me suspect the other person doesn't share the same opinion of me. This inevitably is usually true, only adding to the confidence issue. Otherwise, there always seems to be a breakdown of things to talk about. Maybe I am just not that interesting of a person. I don't really claim to be interesting. So, why exactly would someone want anything to do with me? This is my current conundrum.
Overall, I don't mind so much. I'd much rather be single the rest of my life than with the wrong person. But, I'd much rather be with the right person, than single. Huh.
These things alone still leave quite a large number of people out there. But, I'm still just not much of a people person. I'm not that outgoing when first meeting people, and a lot of people can't seem to handle that. I've kinda grown contempt for most people in general. Then there is the intelligence factor. Probably something that bothers me more than anything is stupid people. There are just too many of these. And not to be sexist, but there seems to be a higher percentage of women that fall into this category. It could just be the ones that I know though.
I also really value open-mindedness. I would like to think of myself as extremely open-minded. I'm not really offended by anything. Nothing really shocks me too much. This pretty much is related to why I don't like conservatives. But, there always seems to be some hangup that people have. Either they hate homosexuals, or they are racist, or something along those lines.
There is also physical aspects. I am by no means the ideal male when it comes to this, but at the same time I am human and there are traits that I am attracted to in the opposite sex. Unless most guys, I really don't seem to have any preference when it comes to breast size. I'm not sure why, I think all sizes are nice. Weight isn't a big hangup for me either. I do have a thing for a pretty face though. That seems to be really important. A good smile and nice hair really does me over. Then there is a height issue. Being only 5'5", about half of all women are taller than myself. I can handle women being slightly taller, but anything more than an inch or so, and I can't really go for that. This is basically a confidence issue on my part, but that's just the way it is. The confidence thing may also stem from the fact that on almost all personals sites, women seem to want guys 5'7" or taller. Even women that are like 5 foot tall.
Then, on the rare occasion I do meet someone that I actually can stand and have conversation with, there always seems to be a problem. Once again, the lack of confidence that I have always makes me suspect the other person doesn't share the same opinion of me. This inevitably is usually true, only adding to the confidence issue. Otherwise, there always seems to be a breakdown of things to talk about. Maybe I am just not that interesting of a person. I don't really claim to be interesting. So, why exactly would someone want anything to do with me? This is my current conundrum.
Overall, I don't mind so much. I'd much rather be single the rest of my life than with the wrong person. But, I'd much rather be with the right person, than single. Huh.